went to.. suntec today. saw alot nice things. simply looking for gifts for everyone. each toy i see, it reminds me of one person or another. tired tired and more tiredness. only the evening is the best. wait for yang to off work and accompany to eat dinner curry chicken and pepper chicken all meat my all time favourite! have some little talks in the park. eating the fruits he packed for us. i wish this moment stays there forever. at least i'm away from my hectic life. a shoulder to lean on and for me to rest my burdens on. let me rave on. my complains and frustration will slowly slip away. why cant life be simple. a ground floor 5 room flat 2 dogs and 1 cat. thats all i need. i just want a good job. a stress free life. happiness, bubbles and rainbows.

SP called when we were in e park askin yang to join them for rounding tonight.so.. i wasnt angry at all tonight seriously~ i wish he will just go and enjoy himself now. i dont wish to be SELFish. i guess he need a life too. and time for catching up with his pals. so i allow him to go.. :)z
so he happily outside now. left me at home. finished my peer tutoring maths ws. and bored again

what could i say. my whole world revolve almost entirely around you. what you do. what you say. affects every little bit of my emotions. and vice versa.

sometimes i couldnt help laughing at you or myself. or at us. not in a mocking way of course but a in good natural way. like you say, we gone through so much thick and thin. weather through all these storms and rains. how could i explain? when things we do became so natural. i could not put a line between me myself and you. our souls might have just mingle together.

but sometimes again i hate you. i hate blogging. how to hide those hurt feelings from you. but anyway you will still force me to say out myself. all the time i try to run. and all the time u try to chase.. all the time you stay and never walk away.

sigh. i'm just trying to change. not trying to drive you away. my insecurities and fear turns into mistrust and lost of faith. remind me occasionally. so i might come back to my senses. no matter how bad it be, tell me u'll stay.